Novelist John Boyne has revealed how he almost took his own life after his marriage breakup.
The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas author told how he took too many pills one night after discovering that his former husband was seeing someone else.
The acclaimed Dublin writer said he felt “very worthless and very alone”, adding that “nothing seemed to matter without him there beside me”.
Boyne told RTE’s Brendan O’Connor: “For everything that I took, within half an hour I was calling an ambulance. It was a ‘cry for help’.”
The 47-year-old from Sandyford became emotional when he explained how the break-up drove him to the brink.
He said: “I didn’t really see it coming – like any relationship there were ups and downs, good moments and bad moments, but I was under the impression that we were 99 per cent solid.
“We had just come back from a fantastic trip to Australia and it was only a few weeks after we got back that he said he didn’t want to be in this relationship any longer.
“In truth I haven’t handled this brilliantly over the last couple of years, if I’m honest.
“I’ve veered between great pain, great sadness, brutal fury at times.
“I ended up in hospital at one point – I took too many pills at one point, I decided to do that.
“I haven’t really talked about this before but it was one of those long, dark nights for the soul, everything really had just caught up with me.
“I knew my ex was seeing someone else and I felt there was no way back, I was absolutely distraught.”
Boyne went on to say that he didn’t want to feel bitter about his former hubby, revealing that he still “loved him deeply”.
“I was probably a nightmare, I’m sure he has reasons, I’m not the easiest person to live with and I’m sure I’m a terrible monster at home some of the time,” he added.
“I’m trying to move past anger toward acceptance and see something positive in the future.
“In fact those eleven years were filled with a lot of happiness with a really decent person who treated me very kindly through most of that time.”
Boyne was speaking to O’Connor on the Marian Finucane Show about his latest book, A Ladder to the Sky.
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Source: Celebrity News Ireland